It's Not So Easy...
I realize that I wrote really recently, but there is so much on my heart right now. So bear with me as I ask a lot of questions.
What do you do when it appears that someone you love is walking in the opposite direction as you? I know what the good answer is: pray for them and remember that they are in God's hands, not yours. But it's not so easy when you're the one letting go.
What do you do when you know there is something on a person's heart and all you can do is wait...and wait...and wait...for them to tell you what it is? I know what the good answer is: pray for them and rely on God for endurance. But it's not so easy when you're the one letting go.
What do you do when someone you love lets you into the deepest part of their heart just once, but then seals it up tighter than before? I know what the good answer is: pray for them and trust God to break the defenses down. But it's not so easy when you're the one letting go.
What do you do when you thought you knew someone, but now you aren't really sure anymore? I know what the good answer is: pray for them and continue to love them unconditionally. But it's not so easy when you're the one letting go.
What do you do when your heart aches so deeply, and all you can do is long for peace? I know what the good answer is: give it all to the One Who created peace. But it's not so easy when you're the one letting go.
What do you do when your fire for God is consuming you, but you are watching another person's flame slowly flicker away? I know what the good answer is: pray for them and continue to pursue Jesus Christ. But it's not so easy when you're the one letting go.
What do you do when it appears that someone you love is walking away from God? I know what the good answer is: pray for them and remember that they are in God's hands, not yours. But it's not so easy when you're the one letting go.
What do you do when your heart is slowly breaking, but you don't know how to tell a certain person without breaking more than your heart? I know what the good answ--oh wait. I don't. You see, it's never so easy when you're the one letting go.
This post is full of questions because it is a peek into my heart. My own faith in Jesus Christ is firmly rooted and is growing every day by the grace of God. But my heart is full of such an ache...such a longing for truth about a situation. I know that God is stretching me, but holy cow...my muscles are sore. I am learning more and more every day that the more you love others, the more you learn about yourself...about how much you love God. The more you love yourself, the more you love others.
Perhaps what burdens me the most right now is this: How do you initiate the very first conversation with someone when your heart is about to be wrenched into tiny bits and your soul is longing for reconciliation? No matter how you go about it, there will be at least one heart-breaking moment; at least one moment when all you can do is whisper the name of Jesus in absolute agony. I'm pretty sure it will happen more than once...cuz that conversation hasn't even happened, and I've done both of these things already.
"The steadfast of mind You will keep in perfect peace, because he trusts in You."~Isaiah 26:3
What do you do when it appears that someone you love is walking in the opposite direction as you? I know what the good answer is: pray for them and remember that they are in God's hands, not yours. But it's not so easy when you're the one letting go.
What do you do when you know there is something on a person's heart and all you can do is wait...and wait...and wait...for them to tell you what it is? I know what the good answer is: pray for them and rely on God for endurance. But it's not so easy when you're the one letting go.
What do you do when someone you love lets you into the deepest part of their heart just once, but then seals it up tighter than before? I know what the good answer is: pray for them and trust God to break the defenses down. But it's not so easy when you're the one letting go.
What do you do when you thought you knew someone, but now you aren't really sure anymore? I know what the good answer is: pray for them and continue to love them unconditionally. But it's not so easy when you're the one letting go.
What do you do when your heart aches so deeply, and all you can do is long for peace? I know what the good answer is: give it all to the One Who created peace. But it's not so easy when you're the one letting go.
What do you do when your fire for God is consuming you, but you are watching another person's flame slowly flicker away? I know what the good answer is: pray for them and continue to pursue Jesus Christ. But it's not so easy when you're the one letting go.
What do you do when it appears that someone you love is walking away from God? I know what the good answer is: pray for them and remember that they are in God's hands, not yours. But it's not so easy when you're the one letting go.
What do you do when your heart is slowly breaking, but you don't know how to tell a certain person without breaking more than your heart? I know what the good answ--oh wait. I don't. You see, it's never so easy when you're the one letting go.
This post is full of questions because it is a peek into my heart. My own faith in Jesus Christ is firmly rooted and is growing every day by the grace of God. But my heart is full of such an ache...such a longing for truth about a situation. I know that God is stretching me, but holy cow...my muscles are sore. I am learning more and more every day that the more you love others, the more you learn about yourself...about how much you love God. The more you love yourself, the more you love others.
Perhaps what burdens me the most right now is this: How do you initiate the very first conversation with someone when your heart is about to be wrenched into tiny bits and your soul is longing for reconciliation? No matter how you go about it, there will be at least one heart-breaking moment; at least one moment when all you can do is whisper the name of Jesus in absolute agony. I'm pretty sure it will happen more than once...cuz that conversation hasn't even happened, and I've done both of these things already.
"The steadfast of mind You will keep in perfect peace, because he trusts in You."~Isaiah 26:3
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